I have not yet

http://users.rcn.com/alderete/humor/norm/college.html

drink. drank. drunk.

think im done drinking for a while. just a choice, probably will be good for me some way or another. still stoked i can manage to have fun! good day, good night.

edit: also would like to throw in a little recognition to my parents. Mom called me today just to say she loved me because one of her old students got in a car accident, he was my age. Just makes me realize how much they really do care for me and even when they are trying to push me out on my own they will still be there regardless.

fuck.
note to self: you're an idiot.

bed+bon iver=naptime

Change

I am ready for a change. Its not that I'm upset with any part of my life, I have so many things going for me. To be blunt I'm ready to get off my ass, stop slacking, and really get life rolling. Get a steady income, keep up the good habits, and do away with the problem causing. Job interview Saturday. Kind of stoked that I might have money again, God knows I have enough time.

Also becoming a little artistic lately. Have a few little projects I'm working on. I've seen/read about some projects and they are really inspiring. Just would like to have that effect on someone some day. We'll see, maybe its already happened and I don't even know. But thats just wishful thinking now isn't it.

night

Just read a little top five survey and it made me realize I have absolutely no idea what I want from my life. haha sounds intense for a survey I know, I said the same thing. but it asked about your dream life i.e. job, house, car, etc. I started to do it but realized I honestly dont know the answer to any one of those. Not a clue what I want for a career, business was as specific as I could get. Home is place I thought I'd always know where it would be. I've dreamed to live in Southern California for as long as I can remember but recently I can see myself going almost anywhere. Who knows, just things to think about. Maybe I just need a trip to get it out of my system. and as for the career, we may never know, but apparently it has to do with making a very well put together poster board. Such a long day tomorrow, but so glad the weeks done. Its time for a lot of phoenix and a lot of writing. night.

Rules on Rules

1:30am and I'm just starting my law paper. Why do I do this? Sabotage is a crucial part of myself apparently. I just want to relax, listen to music, and think. And then ironically I would probably want to write, buuuuuuut not about business law. Can't win them all I guess. Just started up and episode of Freaks and Geeks. This essay will probably be finished at 6am. Aw snaps its gonna be a long night. Might as well make it a night and try out World of Warcraft. Save me.

Do You Remember

Do you remember when we first met? I sure do
It was some time in early September.
Though you were lazy about it, you made me wait around.
I was so crazy about you, I didn't mind.

wish i had money. wish i had a degree. wish i had a girl. wish i had a job. wish i had an escape.

know ive got a home. know ive got love. know ive got friends. know ive got it good.

dont let your dreams be dreams.

where you running to? where you running to? could you go and run into me?

stonedasaurus-rex

so lonely. so pretty. such a lack of diplomacy.

fullerton here we come.

always sunny tonight. drive to fullerton will be nice. just music and my thoughts.

wish we could stay up until 4am at this house every night. missing a few pieces to the puzzle.

Our Page

I fell for you, I should've known
I fell for you, I could've flown
It was a mistake, for me to take
A leap into, a love with you
We shared a passion, we shared a bed
It blew my mind, went to my head
I tried to hide it, tried to stop
But as it went, I just could not
Soon enough, you were gone
I'm still here, what went wrong
Foolhardy heart, that much I know
Time apart, so we may grow
I fell for you, I should've known
I fell for you, I shoud've flown
Now all I want, is to get out of here
What I want, it is not clear
What the future holds, for you and I
I can't understand, but I can try
I'm in pursuit, of hapiness
What I'll find, I can only guess
If you'll be by my side, I cannot see
Whats going on, with you and me
But I wont do it, I wont exchange
I have yet to turn, our page.

9/16/09
Alan Lopez

I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met
She's just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see
We've met
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again

Love my life right now. However confusing/frustrating/unproductive it may be.

and I could take another hit for you
and I could take away your trips from you
and I could take away the salt from your eyes
and take away the spitting salt in you
and I could give you my apologies
by handing over my neologies
and I could take away the shaking knees
and I could give you all the olive trees
oh look at the trees
and look at my face
and look at a place far away from here
-Wolf Parade

Now i'm no man of church and i'm no man of state

But i see god everyday and love my home to no debate

People tell me to find god in life in every aspect

But i'm not a bad man in any respect

I'll find my own path to righteousness

But oh no it wont have loneliness

Because don't you know that god is with me everyday

Oh yeah oh yeah hes with us everyday

I'll Stand For This

Well shes a girl with love in her eyes
And I'm a boy with love in my heart
When we combine this world just can't keep up.
Well someone spoke up and said it's all in your head
She looked at him and he at she and said
It's all in your heart, just look through your eyes!
This loves all we got, and this loves all we need
We'll live this life through, and see where it leads
A shout from a crowd or a look from a passerby
I'll stand for this and I'll stand for you
I'll keep this love in a little pocket at my chest
You keep this love in a little pocket at your breast
We may leave, have to say our goodbyes
But I'll still be standing screaming
It's all in your heart just look through your eyes!
Oh yeah and I'll stand for this and I'll stand for you

"Stand by Me" performed by musicians around the world from SKAT on Vimeo.

Amalfi Coast, Italy

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